Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Disappointment

I am sorry it's been so long since I've posted on the blog.  I am going to try to make this a picture/family blog instead of my personal little outlet.  But, before I do that, I want to get something off my chest.

Todd and I thought I could potentially be pregnant...but as of last night, I'm not.  I cant tell you how much my heart broke.  I know it was only one time that we tried just a week ago, but my heart still broke.  I know that if we are meant to have children, God will give them to us, but I never expected to feel so horrible about getting my period.

So, there is a little sadness here in the Crispin household this morning.  I didnt realize how much Todd would be effected as well.

We talked about it last night, and I think we are going to try to start building a family.  I dont know how I'm going to go through each month wishing my period doesnt come, and when it doesnt, I'm not sure how I'm going to keep it a secret until it's "safe," but I am excited to see what God has in store for us.