Submission

I have always been very strong-willed, stubborn and independent.  I grew up believing in women’s rights, and “Girl Power!” Many girls dream of their wedding and babies.  Not me.  I was never going to get married (and this was BEFORE my parents got divorced.)  I was going to adopt a lot of children and “live off the land.”  I didn’t need a man in my life. 

When the time came that my parents got divorced, my feminism was still just as strong.  My friends, who led me to Christ, always talked about submission and following their future husbands.  I never wanted to be that way.  I never wanted to have a man tell me what to do, and how to do things.  I argued to no-end about submission and how degrading it was as a woman. 

Fast forward to today. I am really feeling the need to trust in God and to follow Him.  I am not well versed in the Bible, but I want to be.  I want to learn all there is to learn within the Word of God.  I want to be a God-fearing woman, and all that comes with it (including submission.)

I have not talked to Todd about this yet but I’m pretty sure he will pass out.  I haven’t talked to him about wanting to join a church, daily devotionals, prayer time, submission, or any of it.  We went to church together ONCE in our relationship, and that was after I got out of the hospital.  Todd didn’t like the church; however, I did. 

I’m not sure Todd would be as willing as I am to make a change in our lives such as this one.  But all I can do is pray, and follow the teachings of the Bible.

I’m starting to ramble.  The point of this post is that I am seeking references.  Does anyone have any suggestions of books that I can start reading about submission, or any great daily devotionals?    

I hope this post doesn’t offend anyone.  I’m really not quite sure how this will all work out.  Only time will tell, but I know whatever happens is His plan for me.